You should have left that bitch in 2017
This is a story all about how toxic people just can’t stick around. When I was homeless, I used to live in a drug-infested house with a childhood friend. She was closer to me than a sister. I loved her and her family like they were my own until she starting hitting the pipe. It broke my heart when I found out that she was doing drugs daily. Now I had a better understanding of where her mood swings were coming from and I also knew that there was no chance of changing her. I realized that there was no way that I could bring her into my 2018. I keep thinking about her kids–my nephews–who I love dearly. It feels like someone is snatching my heart out of my chest leaving them all in the past. I still deal with the heartbreak of missing them, but I had to do what I had to do because I can no longer accept toxic energy in my circle. That relationship was starting to hurt me more than build me.
As a general rule, I simply don’t ask people for help because everytime I accept favors from people, I owe them something that I can’t return. Take for instance another “friend” that got left in 2017. I never asked this “friend” for anything, but she would always offer to help because she saw something special in me. But just a few months ago she decided she didn’t want to talk to me anymore. She tried to come back around once she saw my budding success, but by that time the only thing I wanted to do is repay her and move on. I accept the fact that our friendship died and it is better for the both of us never to speak again. There are only 2 friends that I ever had that I allowed back into my life after petty arguments, but the rest can stay they asses in 2017. Here are a few affirmations that I remind myself of:
- Out in the struggle I found my way, I lost a few homies along the way but I never needed them anyway.
- I’d rather eat crow with bums before I split my steak with these fake ass BITCHES.
- Every flower leaves, but the stems live forever!
- Happy Never Year!