Trusting Khloe Kardashian
My big brother wasn’t Big’s brother, but my big sister is Kim’s sister. Meeting Khloe Kardashian for the first time was surreal. I, like you, have watched and loved her family for a decade and to be able to call her a friend, big sister, and a mentor is a true honor.
To be able to call her a friend, big sister and a mentor is a true honor.
Everybody experiences pain–sometimes from other people and sometimes from life itself. I know that I am not the first to tell you that it is so hard to love after you’ve been hurt. And most times love hurts. It will make you wanna hide in a corner and never come out. It will make you ask yourself why and question your very existence. When I met Khloe Kardashian was hiding in a corner and I was questioning everyone and everything. With that being said it wasn’t easy to trust her with my story–especially because sharing with her meant sharing with her 50 million Twitter followers. I remember when I first met Khloe and I told her that I didn’t want to talk about my arrests or anything for that matter and her response was, “If you don’t talk about it here, the bloggers will eat you alive out there.” Not even 3 months later a few bloggers had uncovered personal details about me, my past, and my darkest, most embarrassing secrets. All of this before E! had even announced that I was going to be on the show. I never responded. I just kept filming and kept telling my truth. But unearthing your secrets on the world’s stage is a lot of pressure.
There I was, having the experience of a lifetime, and all I wanted to do was hide in a corner and never come out. I wanted to quit and I wanted to disappear. Khloe immediately put me into therapy and told me, “I don’t want you to leave and regret leaving. I want you to become your best self. What about your blog? What about your hard work? You can’t spend the rest of your life hiding and questioning.” I didn’t care. It was getting too hard and life was closing in on me from every direction. And then Khloe surprisingly introduced me to her sister, Kim, which changed my life FOREVER (in my loudest Cardi B voice). At that point I started to think OMG, SHE REALLY LOVES ME! I began to realize that Khloe Kardashian–one of the most beautiful and influential people in the world–would stop at nothing to make sure I knew that I was loved. When it came time for my blog release party, I had no money to pay for anything. I was going to have to serve my guests water because I didn’t have enough money to pay for wine. But Khloe stepped in and paid for everything. For the first time in a long time, I knew that I had someone who I could lean on. I will never forget that type of love. I will never forget the day that Khloe Kardashian looked me in the eyes and said, “I have everything to give to you and nothing to take from you.” For that kind and most genuine gesture, I owe her my life. When I was broke Khloe gave me work, when I was homeless Khloe gave me shelter, and when my soul was empty Khloe poured right back into me.
I can do nothing but thank you for being my angel on earth aka my butter pecan snicker ice cream.